Well, anyway...I didn't get to take the whole day off to spend with him but I did go watch his music class at school and then took him out for lunch :)
When we got back to his daycare (we call it "school") after lunch it was nap time. I didn't want to upset him and disrupt all the kids already sleeping so I thought to myself "Well, I'll just stay a little while so he doesn't cry and once he's asleep I'll go." Well about 10 minutes later my sweet boy says "bye, mom" I thought for sure he doesn't know what he's saying, he doesn't want me to leave! So I asked him, "you want mommy to leave?" and he said "yea". Heartbreak!! So I think to myself that if I stand up and start to leave he'll for sure make a fuss because he doesn't want his mommy to leave! So I stand up and just kind of look at him waiting for him to start whining for me to sit back down...but no he just blew me a kiss then turned over on his tummy and started sucking his thumb. So I walked out and kept looking back at my little boy who is independently laying on his cot with not a care in the world. Of course he's still my cuddle bug who adores his mommy and daddy but for that moment I really had to grab a hold of the fact that he won't always be my "baby" no matter how much I say he will!This growing up thing is so bitter sweet and though I'm sure this is a feeling that all mommies in the world feel as their little ones grow (or grew) up...it's still difficult for the mommies who experience it for the first time with their first child. The sweet part is watching him grow and learn. Listening to him talk and have thoughts of his own...the bitter part is when I miss that baby smell, his soft hair and gummy, drooling mouth. When I miss those little clothes and baby giggles.
The baby toys have been replaced with big boy toys like trucks and tractors. That soft, fine baby hair has now become unruly, thick hair that wants never wants to stay in place. That gummy smile has turned into a mouth full of little pearly white teeth and a sponge bob toothbrush. Those cute little clothes have been replaced with big boy clothes that don't say things like "I love mommy" or "Team Daddy" on them. Those baby giggles have turned into BIG belly laughs with a constant plea for "mowe tickle". And he goes from being my baby to being my little buddy. As things change and I attempt to hold on when I think about the the great things to come for this little boy and his sentimental momma the sweet definitely takes over the bitter!!
I created this slideshow on www.onetruemedia.com so that I can remember his second year of life; so I can move on with him as he grows but look back whenever I need to. I did this last year to remember his first year of life and enjoy watching it from time to time and seeing how much he has grown and changed. This video took me FOREVER to finish because I did not sort his pictures very well through the year and I had to find the perfect songs. But am so glad I took the time to complete it because I will cherish it forever!!
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